I totally cheated and temped this AM

Ok, so let me preface by saying it was never my intent to take my temp, and now that I did I feel totally guilty! Stupid, I know. Anyways...there is a reason behind my temping.

This morning I had a dream I had just given birth to a baby girl. I remember looking down at her and saying "Oh look, you have eyes like your Daddy." The dream was just so quick that it couldn't have last more than 2 minutes. But, then I woke up, only 15 minutes after I normally take my temp (I didn't have my alarm set b/c I wasn't supposed to be temping). I became momentarily possessed and decided to temp. It was really high. But I wondered if it was as high as it was since its been pretty hot in our bedroom lately. I asked Chris if he was warm this morning and he said no. So, shit, I don't know what to think. All morning I've been thinking about this damn dream and every time I think about looking into the baby girl's eyes I start to cry. As I'm crying now just thinking about it. I've also been getting waves of nausea that come over me and last a couple of seconds and then go away. I don't know if its real or if its me causing them from my freaking out about this dream and my temp. Does that make sense? Let me add that I NEVER get nauseated. I am one of those people that has only thrown up maybe 3 times in my life. So, its just weird.

I keep thinking, wow, if I'm not pregnant, someone is playing the cruelest trick on me imaginable. I am on a seesaw of emotions right now, from thinking maybe I really am pregnant to "no, you idiot, stop making things up in your mind--YOU are doing this to yourself." Its all really upsetting. We'll just have to wait and see what happens on Monday. I have to be sure to run and get rid of FMU tomorrow AM so that I am not tempted to test. I refuse to test without FMU.

Anyways, that's about it with me for right now. Keep me in your thoughts :)