Ugh...I'm so bloated

I seriously don't know why I continue to eat cherries. They give me horrible gas and bloat....and today is no exception to that. Not to mention that I already felt fat today without the added bloat and gas. Not a pretty sight...

And yes, I actually did stop temping--so happy to not be stressing about that...

Not temping in the 2ww

I have decided that after tomorrow's temp (5 or 6 DPO) that I will not temp the rest of this cycle. Every 2WW I get so stressed out about my temps and it NEVER changes the outcome of the inevitable. So, no temping till cycle #6 and no testing unless AF is late. I have a feeling that this isn't our cycle, even with our good timing. Next cycle will be full speed ahead with the Clomid. I should O around our first anniversary, so hopefully that'll bring us some luck!

Otherwise I am completely swamped today at work, yet again. Ever since July 3rd it has been like complete mayhem. Not to mention that the team of people that I support like to promise unrealistic things to our clients which put me under the gun to produce. Ugh...hopefully the day will go by fast. There is no way I am not taking lunch this week though. Last week I was chained to my desk all day, every day...and I'm sorry, but I cannot do it again. I need my hour to decompress, TYVM.

I hate my chart

Ok--so I had a temp dip this morning and while I know that I shouldn't over analyze one temp, I seriously cannot help myself today. If it goes back up tomorrow, then fine, no big deal. But, what if I haven't Oed yet. I'm fairly certain that I have had a CM dry up and all signs point to O already happening....except for this one temp. Meh, oh well....I guess tonight will be round 4 just to be safe :)

Here are some pics of the furnished place. These are in my bio too....

Bombay chest in entry way...and Leo

Kitchen

Great Room
Dining Room
Powder Room
More pics to come soon :)

Thank you smiley face

I love the smiley face OPKs--its amazing what that smiley face can do for your moral. And to think I wasn't going to test today....wish us luck!

Fed-up

I am officially done with this cycle. Its quite obvious that this has tuned into an anovulatory cycle. My temp has been spiking all over the place and I am on CD 34 and FF is a liar for saying I Oed the other day. Sorry FF, but I call bullshit!

I'm sick of it all. Sick of waiting, sick of being consumed by TTC, sick of being constantly disappointed. I'm sick of the acupressure and all my effort getting me no where. I just want my period to show up so that I can start the Clomid.

I think I'm going to quit the acupressure. I've been going for 2 months and I actually don't think that its helped at all. I thought about it a lot over the weekend. I think I'll call today and cancel my appointment on Wednesday and let them know I'm taking a break from the acupressure. Why should I sit for an additional hour in traffic if its not even helping me?!

I don't regret the acupressure because I felt that I exhausted that as a resource and can feel good about moving to the next step. I would never be as comfortable with taking the Clomid again if I hadn't stuck with the acupressure for the past 2 cycles.

Today my good friend who is pregnant will find out the sex of her baby. Another will be 14 weeks pregnant, and my co worker will be 12 weeks pregnant.

Wow, this truly sucks.

**UPDATE**--My friend is having a baby girl. I just went and cried in the bathroom stall....I am so pathetic.

I feel ok today

I don't feel sore or stiff today, so that's a good thing. I went this morning to get an estimate on my car damages. There are no damages to the front, just to the back. Between parts and labor it'll be about a $1000. Now I'm just waiting for the f-er who hit me to talk to his insurance company so that they can start processing the check for my repairs. What a douche.

On a TTC note, still no O. And no + OPKs. I think it'll happen within the next couple of days though. So, I'm hopeful. The only thing I can do is sit, wait, and be patient. I'm taking my OPKs and monitoring all other signs, so I doubt we'll miss it if it does come. The plan for next cycle is Clomid, 50 mg. I'm pretty enthusiastic about next cycle considering the fact that the Clomid worked very well the 1st time :)

I was rear ended today

Yeah, it sucked. I was on my way to work this morning, in rush hour traffic. It was just starting to clear up and the girl in front of me made a regular stop...no slamming on the brakes or anything like that. It was stop and go traffic. As I was stopped I looked in my rear view mirror and saw the guy coming toward me and knew he was going to hit me. I pushed harder on my brakes to try and avoid hitting the girl in front of me. He hit me and I hit her...hit her just barely though. There is virtually no damage to her car. Only the slight imprint of my license plate in her bumper. I do not have visible damage to the front...the back is a different story. I will most likely need my bumper replaced. The guy that hit me didn't even ask if I was OK. As soon as we pulled off to the side of the road I and got out of our cars, I immediately asked the girl in front of me if she was OK, and she in turned asked me. I walk over to the guy and he is standing in front of his car, with his hands on his hips just looking at me. Seeing as he wasn't going to inquire about my well being, I went ahead and asked him if he was OK. He said "yeah" in his broken English...and then thats it. Cops showed up soon there after.

Come to find out this guy doesn't have a valid IL driver's license. He is insured though, thank god. I was not cited for anything as I obviously didn't do anything wrong. He got cited for not having a driver's license and the accident. Despite how hard the impact was my little Mazda3 held up pretty well. A lot of the impact was absorbed by the bumper.
I couldn't help but wonder how on earth you can be insured but not have a valid driver's license. This guy had some Russian consulate driver's license, which if it was less than 90 days old would have been valid....he said that he had been living in the country for over a year. How could his insurance remain current on a DL that is only valid for 90 days?! Ugh, whatever...it'll get sorted out I guess.

I'm not hurt. I was a little shaken up, but I'm ok. We'll see how I feel when I wake up tomorrow morning.

I bet this will delay O even further....bastard. Didn't this douchebag know that I was gearing up to O and now he might have delayed it?! ugh....so annoyed ;)