Stay Tuned

I'll be home in CA for the next few days. I'll be sure to update once I get back. Muah!

Cannot.keep.my.eyes.open

Ok, seriously, I don't know what is wrong with me today. I woke up, came into work, was here for about 2 hours then WHOA--the intense yawning and closing of the eyes started. Now I've eaten lunch and its even worse. I might have to go outside and get some fresh air to wake up! Its only 12.30 and this day is just going to move at a snail's pace if I don't wake up.

I am so excited to go home to CA tomorrow. Its been 3 months since I've seen my mom and dad and I can't wait to hug them both. Hopefully Leo won't be a demon on the flight over. Usually he's pretty good since he's lightly sedated, but he starts to get restless towards then end of the flight. I also hope that I don't have to listen to Chris complaining about how uncomforatble he is in his seat.

I won't be too comfie on the plane due to a nice muscle spasm I had in my lower right back yesterday. My acupressurist actually said that it was due to my ovary--this is based upon, of course, the symptoms I was describing to him surrounding the time I started to feel the pain. Oh well...I'm sure I'll be just fine.

Let's take a break from TTC stuff and talk politics. Can we talk about how much I love Obama?

Ok, seriously. Back in the fall when the democratic candidates starting campaigning more vigorously, I was completely torn between the 3. At first I thought my allegiance would lie somewhere between Clinton and Edwards. I decided that I would sincerely review all issues and stances of the candidates and base my vote in the primaries in that fashion. After much research, I was torn between Obama and Clinton. Yet even in my mental tie, there was something about Obama that I was drawn to. I really started to do my homework on the 2 candidates and came to realize that I almost all of my views aligned with Obama and that pretty much the only reason I was even remotely drawn to Clinton was because she was a woman. I didn't want to vote for someone just because we are the same gender.

To me Obama represents a breath of fresh air that is long overdue in stale DC politics. As an undergrad and grad student (I studied International Relations for BA and MA, for those that don't know) I remember thinking how we needed someone with the characteristics that Obama has to really get this country moving in the right direction. Being an international relations geek, I really could not get past Clinton's vote to go to war in Iraq. Anyone that knew their IR politics would know that this was a bad idea. Both my undergrad and grad programs were generally quite opposed to the war. If it was so clear to students that studied politics, why wasn't it clear to the decision makers who live and breath in the arena of politics? It baffles me.

All that being said, I think that Clinton has been a formidable democratic candidate, but I am very eager to see Obama take the nomination. I'm also not opposed to a VP ticket for her should Obama take the presidential nomination.

Tuesday that feels like Monday

Ok, so I don't know why I can't stop blogging now. Maybe I need this avenue to express my ramblings and frustrations about TTC. June will be month 6 of TTC. I remember when I went off the pill at the end of December that eveyone was saying "Oh, you'll get pregnant right away after the pill." Low and behold, here I am in May and I've only ovulated 2 times. I hate that people give me false hope (I know better now though). I want to know who these doctors are that say the women are most fertile the 3 months after BCP. That is the biggest crock of shite I have ever heard. I have heard the "fertile after the pill" line quite a few times and a gut feeling always told me it was wrong.

For a few years now I've had this bad gut feeling that I would have trouble getting pregnant. And here I am, having trouble getting pregnant. Hell, I can't even ovulate properly yet have a chance at conceiving. I know I should be patient, but patience left me last month. I have encountered so many others that have it much worse than I do, but that doesn't make this any less painful. It's very difficult to not measure self worth with your ability to get pregnant.

Oh and by the way, the CBEFM gave me a "low" today...icing on the cake.

2 entries in one day!

I'm such a good little blogger today! I had a decent day at work and just came back from my acupressure appointment. The doc said that things were looking good today. Low and behold I come home and take my daily OPK...its positive. But looks the same as it did the other day when I had a false positive--damn you OPKs! We'll see what happens with the last stick of the CBEFM tomorrow...if its Peak, then we're golden. I still can't believe I'm on CD 26 and haven't Oed yet---rotten cycle. In the mean time, I think I'll go play Phase 10 with Chris and then play my new favorite computer game: http://www.travelpod.com/traveler-iq/usa?78

I'm seriously addicted to this geography game. I'm pretty good at the world one...the U.S. one, not so much.

It's Official--we have our closing date!

June 20th it is! We are so excited--after 15 months of waiting we are finally moving into our townhome. This is the best news I've had on a Monday in a long time.

On the TTC front--I'm ready to throw the computer, CBEFM, and all my OPKs out the damn window. Here we are, CD 26 and my body is f-ing with me big time. It's keeping a tally of how many times it can fool me into thinking I'm ovulating in any given cycle. I know that it could be worse--but hell, this is no fun at all.

I am such a slacker....

So obviously its been many moons since my last entry--try half a year! Wow, I'm an enormous slacker! Many things have happened since my last post. Most notably that we are still waiting to move into our townhome. We are scheduled to move around June 20th. It will be 10 months later than our original move in date. Bastards.

This pic was taken on Mother's Day. We also noticed that the hardwood floors were being put in.

We cannot wait to move in! The above picture is the view from the great room window. Here you can see half of the great room and the dining room where the back wall is.

On another note, Leo is as cute as ever. He was being a teddy bear the other day when he decided to take over my pillow:




He is so silly--I just want to squeeze the pads on his little paws!


Anywhoooo--I will try to blog more often. I leave you with a pic of Chris and I when my sister came to visit us during her spring break