Eff me sideways aka 39 week update

I'm still here, mentally hanging on by a thread. I still cannot believe this kid is not here. I'm at the point where I'm starting to freak out that she's going to be overdue. What I feel now will be considered pleasant compared to if that might happen.

I ended up in L&D yesterday. Not actually related to labor. I was experiencing some light headedness and headache and given my prior history of gestational hypertension my OB decided I best be checked out. Well everything is perfectly fine. Apparently I am the picture of pregnancy health and Emilia looked great on the monitors. My OB was on call and he checked me - 2 cm still, but apparently I have gone from 75% effaced back up to 50% and baby was at -4 station (from 2 weeks at -2). Not sure how we're working in reverse here. I have my usual appt with him today and want to know how you make backwards progress and what the plan is moving forward. I thought I would be a candidate to have my membranes stripped at this point given the progress I had made thus far, but now I have no idea if that's even possible or if I would even respond favorably to it. It is, as with other more natural induction methods, only going to work if you were essentially go into labor as it is.

Ugh, so yeah, eff me sideways. This kid needs to get out.